security and reassurance

This year I've just been studying. But lately I've stopped and thought about what I'm doing it all for, and about situations in life. And the prospect of 'A' Levels and Chinese and T3A and 0 CIP hours since I entered JC. And aren't these what determine the future, and the rest of the road ahead? Sometimes I'm not even sure of what I really want to do. And once you think about these things, you don't stop. Worrying. Although you're not supposed to.

That's why the Easter Sunday service, Breakfast with Jesus, was such a godsend. (I didn't manage to bring a friend though, it supposing to be an evangelistic service) I think slowly as it progressed there was a renewal of the spirit. It all hit me at the performance, and at the song Because He lives, at the line He holds the future.

Because He lives, I can face tomorrow.
Because He lives, All fear is gone!
Because I know He holds the future
And life is worth the living just because He lives!

The overwhelming sense of security, and of peace is very comforting. And it simply echoed the devotion I read the night before, which basic gist was that God's presence in your life is not based on feelings. Even when you feel that He is not there, He is there. And the devil plays with your mind, making you worry when there's no cause for worry, and making simple matters appear complicated. So just trust in God and everything will turn out alright in the end like it always does.

The experience was really refreshing. The week so far, has been one of the happier weeks of my JC life. I don't feel as tired anymore throughout the days of lessons. Sleep helps too of course. Good mental health does wonders.

:)

economics

demand is inelastic if there is a low availability of substitutes.

BUT IT'S EASTER!

a year

The past keeps haunting me. Not that it's a bad thing. I guess it's when I realised at choir camp that it was around that time that I just entered VJC. And everything has changed. EVERYTHING. It's so fast, but in one year, so much has happened. And we learned to live with it all.

After choir camp I dug out the old card from right below my table where I left it (my table has a lot of old stuff) and looked at the things written on it and then looked at the new card with the things written on it (not much because I had to leave early) and I realised that at that time I barely knew anyone. Since then a lot has happened. Reading my old blog posts on a whim recently and Lix's CD compilation just showed me how much. It's been a rollercoaster. I don't know whether to be thankful or to regret anything but well life: it goes on (The Leap Years!). I guess we're growing up.

And I realised how easy it is to forget everything else once you've got your happy ending. And wondered if I myself have been guilty of it.

pah

'A' Level results was yesterday. Not that it really affected me. We got to see our seniors, which was nice. But well, it really made me feel the pressure. You want the As, but you don't really know how you're going to get there. How I felt was like how cherhan's msn nick put it, something like - "same time next year, I want to be happy".

Chinese came out on the same day too. I wish I'll be able to pass next time.

I think coming to JC really makes you realise that you're growing up, and no one's going to help you now, you're really got to help yourself. With all the scholarship and university talks and everything and whatever that makes you realise that you have a future in which you're independent and maybe things are not going to be so nice and dandy anymore. It's a competitive world.

So you see funny things that JC people do that look really childish but it's because we're trying to revisit our chidhood. We're clinging on to the last vestige of childhood, doing things we didn't do when we were still young. I can't believe I wanted to grow up so fast when I was young. Now I don't go into the world. I don't feel ready. Yes, there are nice things about maturing. But we can't pick and choose. We're all going to be 18; some already are. Like, that's so old. We'll be adults, and we have to act like adults. The world isn't so simple anymore and things get complicated, if it isn't already. You can't remain like The Little Prince.

On a happier note. Go watch The Leap Years. It's real nice. One of the more artistic local movies I feel.